Arriving at home after one of my late ballet practices in the city
6-7 p.m
Ugh. Soooo tired, still have school tomorrow. I mean it's already 6 or 7 in the evening and I just arrived at home. This would all be easier for me if I just stayed over in my lola's house in the city.
This is what everyone thinks about. They always wonder that if I stayed in Iloilo one of the hardship in my life would lessen. Actually, only people who haven't seen my house in Guimaras think these kinds of thoughts. I love my house here. It's very open. You don't need aircon to cool you off. We have our own version, we have centralized aircon in our house. Meaning it's always windy here. Sometimes you don't need that electric fan at night, just open the windows.
The reason why our house is so nature friendly is that we chose not to cut the trees where our house should have been. That's why our house is like small huts or houses. Privacy is a luxury here. I have my own little house. It's also peaceful. Not like in the city where there's always a feeling of restlessness that I feel. Also if I don't go back to Guimaras I'd miss my family. My mom, my dad, and my brother and sister. Anyway, I'm already used to riding the pumpboat everyday to reach Iloilo. I like my life just the way it is. :))))
'Home is where the heart is'
- This quote always comes to my mind whenever I meet new people who question me about how I live and manage my life, and to me this quote explains everything about their question.
'There's nothing half so pleasant as coming home again'
Margaret Elizabeth Sanqster
- I can't help but to post this quote too, it speaks volumes. It explains a lot too.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Curiosity killed the cat???
One of my traits that is sometimes a hindrance to me, is my curiosity. I have a very curious mind. It often gets me into trouble, but not always. Sometimes it explains to me some stuff that I never did understand. So my curiosity can be also considered as helpful.
There was this one time when I touched something because I was too curious, and then it broke. I panicked and just hid it where nobody would find it. See what I mean? This has happened to me a lot of times because I've had plenty of experiences just like this. I try to control it, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I really treasure my curiosity but sometimes it's just a nuisance. A treasure but also a burden.
'Curiosity is not a sin.... But we should exercise caution with our curiosity... yes, indeed.'
Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire
Albus Dumbledore
There was this one time when I touched something because I was too curious, and then it broke. I panicked and just hid it where nobody would find it. See what I mean? This has happened to me a lot of times because I've had plenty of experiences just like this. I try to control it, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I really treasure my curiosity but sometimes it's just a nuisance. A treasure but also a burden.
'Curiosity is not a sin.... But we should exercise caution with our curiosity... yes, indeed.'
Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire
Albus Dumbledore
Law of Attraction or just simply Happy Thoughts
They say if you attract negative energy it goes back to you. The same with positive energy. So I try very hard to think about positive things, happy thoughts (Peter Pan!!!). If you think positive thoughts you attract positive energy. I also know this because of a book entitled Book of Secrets, they also have Book of Secrets for Teens. It's especially made for teenagers like me. It talks about the Law of Attraction. Which is what I was talking about in my first few sentences.
Last year my section won in the Best Play and in almost every category there is in the English Play. During the Playfest what we were all thinking about was that everything will all go smoothly and that we can do it. We attracted positive energy. We believe that was part of why we one. We were all so optimistic that we'd win.
I tried experimenting that theory almost on everything, and it does work with almost anything. If you cloud your mind with negative energy, how could you concentrate with the negative energy eating and pulling you down? Next time, always think positive.
'Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!'
Peter Pan
Last year my section won in the Best Play and in almost every category there is in the English Play. During the Playfest what we were all thinking about was that everything will all go smoothly and that we can do it. We attracted positive energy. We believe that was part of why we one. We were all so optimistic that we'd win.
I tried experimenting that theory almost on everything, and it does work with almost anything. If you cloud your mind with negative energy, how could you concentrate with the negative energy eating and pulling you down? Next time, always think positive.
'Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!'
Peter Pan
How it all started...
It was Christmas ( I actually forgot what year specifically but it was the year when Twilight became popular) , and we were already under the Christmas tree about to open our presents. I was very excited. I tried to shake it, guessing what may be inside. When we already opened our gifts, I was disappointed. The huge box that I thought were going to be cool, were actually four lame books. I tried to be never disappointed or sad during Christmas, so I put up a happy face for everyone to see. I smiled and thanked my mom for the gift, not really meaning it.
Our Christmas party was about to begin, so I got bored. I checked my Christmas present and realized that they were not just books but that it was the whole Twilight Saga. I remembered stuff about it. It was really becoming very popular, and that everybody had great reviews about it. I started to think: 'What the heck, it never hurts to try'. So I started reading it.
By the time the Christmas party was about to end, I was so engrossed with the book that I never noticed that it was about to end. It was like I had my own little universe. I was happy that the whole saga was already within my reach. It was then that I started appreciating books. I started to research on more vampire related books, then my tastes got a little varied. I would read almost anything that had an interesting story. I was almost like a bookworm. Right now, I'm just not sure if I'm like a bookworm or already a bookworm. :)))
Our Christmas party was about to begin, so I got bored. I checked my Christmas present and realized that they were not just books but that it was the whole Twilight Saga. I remembered stuff about it. It was really becoming very popular, and that everybody had great reviews about it. I started to think: 'What the heck, it never hurts to try'. So I started reading it.
By the time the Christmas party was about to end, I was so engrossed with the book that I never noticed that it was about to end. It was like I had my own little universe. I was happy that the whole saga was already within my reach. It was then that I started appreciating books. I started to research on more vampire related books, then my tastes got a little varied. I would read almost anything that had an interesting story. I was almost like a bookworm. Right now, I'm just not sure if I'm like a bookworm or already a bookworm. :)))
Just do it!
July 15, 2010
St. Paul's Hospital
Going to have a blood platelet
I was sitting in an air conditioned room, trying to calm my breathing. I had a feeling that I would soon be next. I started to shake. I never really liked having blood platelet, especially if it's in the crease of your elbow. A child about 3-5 years old went before me. I was glad yet a bit sad. I started to cover my ears and close my eyes. Expecting to hear the child's cries and to see tears on his face. But lo and behold, after a few seconds, I never did hear any cries or shouts. When the child was done, I just looked at him. He looked bored, as if a needle hadn't just pierced his skin taking his blood. I felt ashamed. If a mere 3-5 year old child can do it then so can I. I took courage from that thought, I calmed a little.
When it was my turn, I started to shake and my heart's beating sounded like a hummingbird's wings. I reminded myself about the child. I eased up a little. My sister offered to hold my hand (the one that wasn't about to be injured), mocking me when I thought she was serious. Anyway, I took it and she really did comfort me (she was sooo sweet that time, I was touched). I suddenly felt a prick in the crease of my elbow and I looked away from it. It didn't really hurt much.
Before I knew it it was over, done, finished. I exhaled, relieved. Finally! I did it. I had faced my fears, and it felt good. I did great, but when I went back to my seat I started to shake again. I was still afraid if i had to do that again in the future. I guess some things never do change, it has been like this since I was little.
St. Paul's Hospital
Going to have a blood platelet
I was sitting in an air conditioned room, trying to calm my breathing. I had a feeling that I would soon be next. I started to shake. I never really liked having blood platelet, especially if it's in the crease of your elbow. A child about 3-5 years old went before me. I was glad yet a bit sad. I started to cover my ears and close my eyes. Expecting to hear the child's cries and to see tears on his face. But lo and behold, after a few seconds, I never did hear any cries or shouts. When the child was done, I just looked at him. He looked bored, as if a needle hadn't just pierced his skin taking his blood. I felt ashamed. If a mere 3-5 year old child can do it then so can I. I took courage from that thought, I calmed a little.
When it was my turn, I started to shake and my heart's beating sounded like a hummingbird's wings. I reminded myself about the child. I eased up a little. My sister offered to hold my hand (the one that wasn't about to be injured), mocking me when I thought she was serious. Anyway, I took it and she really did comfort me (she was sooo sweet that time, I was touched). I suddenly felt a prick in the crease of my elbow and I looked away from it. It didn't really hurt much.
Before I knew it it was over, done, finished. I exhaled, relieved. Finally! I did it. I had faced my fears, and it felt good. I did great, but when I went back to my seat I started to shake again. I was still afraid if i had to do that again in the future. I guess some things never do change, it has been like this since I was little.
Stuck in the Past
As I go on from day to day in my Sophomore Year, my memories from last year always shows up. It now haunts me that those things will never happen again. That there's no way that we'll be together again in the same section. It not only affects me, but my other classmates as well. We just had such a great time last year that we almost can't bear to let go of those memories. I hope this kind of stage passes, it's causing not-sooo-great situations for us. We went through great hardships that we've created a bond, which up until now is still very much visible. Even if we're
from different sections we seek our old classmates. I still don't think if others can ever let go, including me. All of us wants to be classmates again, but we all know that that will never happen.
These never occurred to me during summer break, which made it more harder for me. If I could have gotten more time maybe I would be prepared right now... just, maybe. It's just all so sad that after everything we've been through we won't spend our classes together anymore. But I think this is for the best. We just can't linger on our past memories. We should move forward, explore more; I believe that there are still a lot more of memories, experiences and friends that we might come to encounter and cherish someday.
from different sections we seek our old classmates. I still don't think if others can ever let go, including me. All of us wants to be classmates again, but we all know that that will never happen.
These never occurred to me during summer break, which made it more harder for me. If I could have gotten more time maybe I would be prepared right now... just, maybe. It's just all so sad that after everything we've been through we won't spend our classes together anymore. But I think this is for the best. We just can't linger on our past memories. We should move forward, explore more; I believe that there are still a lot more of memories, experiences and friends that we might come to encounter and cherish someday.
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